The narcissist loved to
put you in a double bind....between a rock and a hard place. No
matter what you do, things won't come out right. They are masters of
manipulation and this is a way they can abuse you that they believe
you can't escape. In other words, you get TRAPPED because, no
matter how much you wrack your brain, you lose either way.
Here's some double
binds.....an abusive narcissist who has you walking on egg shells
demands that you be “spontaneous”, except that the demand for
spontaneity means that if you comply, you aren't being spontaneous.
Besides, the N abuses you which makes you extremely cautious and
withdrawn, so how can you be spontaneous? Either way, you're going
to get it from the narcissist.
Here's another....the
narcissist has made sex very unpleasant, ugly really, and you never
feel loved or even cared about. The narcissist is very crude, the N
is pushing porn and you aren't interested. So, naturally, this
situation isn't going to make you welcome his advances...in fact, you
dread it. So, the narcissist says if you don't, you're frigid. If
you do, you get nothing out of it except that you feel used.
And, another....the
narcissist likes, say, going to a sporting event, say....NASCAR
racing. Fine, but the problem is that the partner doesn't care for
NASCAR. Now, the narcissist insists that the partner go...AND LIKE
IT...otherwise, it proves how selfish the partner is. If the partner
goes, they are more than bored, but have to pretend to be having fun,
but if they don't they will never hear the end of it. Notice that
this double bind has a lot in common with the one just above, with
sex....insisting that you do something you don't want to do and don't
like, and expecting you to enjoy it.
Notice that the key to the
double bind is that whatever you chose, you get adverse consequences.
And, an insidious aspect of this is that it APPEARS as if the
narcissist is NOT controlling because it SEEMS that the Narc is
giving you a choice, but it's a false, and this is a form of control.
A double bind appearing as
an ultimatum sounds like this....do you want to do something that
you don't want to do, or do you want me to find someone who will? Do
you want to get off my back (not object to anything I'm doing), or do
you want me to leave? Yikes.
Suppose the narcissist
asks you if you want to go to the show, or out to eat. You say,
“Well, out to eat and somewhere nice”. The N says, “So, you
don't like going to the show with me?” You: “No, that's not
it.” Then, the next time the N asks you something like this, you
answer the opposite, “The show”. The N says, “So spending time
with me talking at the restaurant is something you don't like.”
Or, you say, “You decide”, in that case, the N says, “What's
wrong with you. You can't make any decisions. I have to do it all
for you.”
So, what do you do when
presented with a double bind? If you play the N's game, you're had.
You will lose. So, you DON'T PLAY. Detach and observe. Reason out
what the N is doing and why. The key is to not be COERCED into a
decision you don't want. This is where boundaries are very handy.
In other words, if the
narc tells you to choose between X and being married, you say, “I'm
going to do X. You do what you want.” That keeps control of your
life in your hands, not the Narc's. Don't allow the narc to divert
by deflection, where you end up defending your choice. You know
you'll never get anywhere with that. You've got to opt out, and that
means saying what you will and won't do, and will and won't tolerate.
I should add that when I did this, my NarcX chose to end the
marriage, which I was perfectly OK with by that time.
And, don't shrink up in
defense. You have to be strong and assertive, and yes, I know that
this has consequences, but allowing yourself to be manipulated and
abused has extraordinary consequences as well. This is YOU CALLING
THE N ON THEIR SH*T, but not engaging in dispute and debate. There
is no compromise with a narcissist. The N thinks they MUST be in
control, and shared control is not in the cards with an N.
So, when you realize that
you're being put into a double bind, take a step back mentally and
emotionally, and decide what YOU want to happen. I realize that in a
normal relationship, there is give and take. Not in a narcissistic
relationship. You have control of your life, or the N does, and
that's a REAL choice, not a double bind.
My NEx used to accuse me of the double bind all the time. I never understood what he meant. I had never heard of this before him. He would say, " you just have this way. No matter what I say I'm worng." I was using logic to unravel his crazy reasoning and he didn't like it. Now this article makes it all clear. He was really projecting on me and setting me up to turn the tables. This blog is really teaching me a lot!
ReplyDeleteYes!!! They project their insecurities and flaws on to you/others. They are so good at it that others believe them. If these “others” believe them and refuse to see the good person that you are, they are themselves insecure and are not your friend, either. After my MIL recognized there was no turning back to my former family, she shared her own observations of this FF from early on. Back then I was not aware of the dynamics. Today I am beyond aware and am able to see it in others. Both a blessing and a curse. But then again, I am greatful I can discern people with good hearts
DeleteHas anyone ever been gaslighted ? It is so awful. He used to do stuff like put the conditioner in the bodywash bottle. Olive oil in my hair serum. Hair remover mixed with my shampoo. Just crazy stuff & then he would say I was making it up. Every time I got proof of something he did. I would go to get it to show someone and the stuff would be gone. Stuff that sounds so crazy that if u tell anyone THEY THINK THAT YOU WERE CRAZY.
ReplyDeleteExcellent article. Interesting though that these articles typically refer to bf/gf scenarios. A different twist is when it relates to a family member. The N is the eldest of three. Now on marriage #3. #3 is just as, if not more sick than the family member. Each describes the other (separately) as having to walk on eggshells around the other. I’m sure they do. If you are able, get out of these relationships before being connected for life!! They don’t acknowledge the hurt they have caused others. Everything that happens is everyone else’s fault since they are perfect. They “appear” (via texts and emails vehemently angry) at holidays and vacation times Trying to ruin your happy times. Sadly for them, they no longer disrupt our happiness. They keep trying to drag others into their delusions to refill the supply of turmoil. Just more of the same. The only thing that can change what’s happening is for the N to forgive themselves for their actions of the past. But, this will never happen. So the cycle continues. Gaslighting is one of their favorite tools. Recognize that you are not mistaken or crazy. Get out! Get away now!!!
ReplyDelete(And yes... I married my “mirror” family. The former “family” I came from included both S & N. Learn and talk to others you can confide in. Take a martial course. Strangly, it does improve your confidence and helps clear your mind) Take care!!